Monday, 17 July 2017

My ancestor, My guide

Crashing against my windowsill
The showers make me feel so blue
Caught in the downpour, roaring yet still
I know that this a blessing from you.. 

I remember the times you yearned for me
Longing to see me, love me, hold me one more time
Years and years you waited for me 
Hoping some day I would just stop by.. 

I kept you waiting, for that one glance
While I got busy and got on with my life.. 
I regret the times I missed that chance
Pressured under the family ties

I took you for granted keeping you hooked
While you always continued to try. 
To get my attention, even if it went unlooked
You always wiped your tears dry 

Never did i think, I would lose you someday 
That all of a sudden you would leave us behind
Your loss was a learning, an experience so grey 
Leaving me shattered and broken from inside.

All the love in mt heart came crashing down
No outlet to express, no more you by my side
I don't remember how long, in this grief I was drowned 
Before I realized you are here as my guide 

I cannot undo the pain I have caused
I cannot, go back in time 
I wish I had some more time on my hands 
Before we bid our final goodbye 

Yet, you came to me, the day you left
You held me in your arms, you held me tight
I go back to that time, I savor that moment
When I saw you, in your light

You have been my guide, my savior, my protector
Helping me heal, with all your might
You are my hero, my guardian ancestor
The one who's given me the inspiration to write 

Those moments when mom says 'you are like your grandmother'
Are the moments that fill my being with pride 
My soul reaches out to you, oh my beloved 
For I know you are always by my side..

You've blessed me enough to learn and accept
Somehow making all the moments right
Your love, your teachings are with me, forever kept
Your strength lends me the power to fight

Although I know you can see me, hear me, feel my pain
Wanting to come to you, take that lane.. 
I know that someday, some where in space and time, 
I KNOW SOMEDAY, WE SHALL MEET AGAIN
I KNOW SOMEDAY, WE SHALL MEET AGAIN....

Happy Birthday Nani! I love you.. No matter where you are, no matter what is going on, know that I always, always LOVE YOU from the bottom of my heart !!! <3 

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